We present the most important revelation thus far this year.
I’ve started feeling emotions other than anger. Of course, they all existed before, but I wouldn’t let myself actually experience them. I know why. No, not telling you, my revelation to hold onto and keep until such times as it’s correct and right to do so. It means last night’s massive tearfest at the end of Blaze wasn’t simply exhaustion but a combination of many things. Allowing myself to feel again is odd.
It means that I sat in the car for 10 minutes this morning and let music move me to tears, as I became one with it and it literally pulled relief and beauty out of me. It’s why right now I’m sitting here with every single nerve tingling from fingers to toes. Welcome to the realisation that experiencing things is perfectly okay and not wrong, and you don’t have to punish yourself any more for being this person.
Emotional resonance is perfectly okay.
Leave this one with me.