[you were warned]
The last few days really have not gone as I had hoped they would. There’s quite a strong temptation right now to just say ‘fuck it’ to everything and go play Animal Crossing until my brain turns to mush, but we have moved forward from those days. Therefore, there has to be a plan. What that means practically, in the short term, is not exercising today.
If I have learnt anything in all of this chaos, it is listening to my own flesh on days when everything is falling apart. On other days I would have pushed myself under the auspice of being determined, brave, solid. Today, I drink a lot, we address what’s been dropped over the last two days and tomorrow, we start again because today, suddenly, is not about pretending this is coping. It isn’t. This is repair work, and it is sorely needed.
Therefore, the plan going forward is as follows:
- Better planning of rest days and cheat days
- Set an exercise goal for June, then stick to it
- Stop beating myself up that progress isn’t happening, when there’s no real progress goal set in the first place
- Finally, grasp my own limitations, and stop judging myself over them as a result
…and with that, let’s get started.