Right now, a lot of what I am doing feels as if I am flailing around in the dark with absolutely no lights. It is hard when everyone else around you appears to be notionally doing better, however untrue this may actually appear to be. I know how all the motivational stuff works, how it’s important to keep yourself busy and grounded, but when all you feel is numb and disconnected that can be hard work.
It doesn’t help that I’ve been disappointed twice this week by people I thought would be nicer than they actually are. Having said that, someone said something to me today that took my breath away: so kind and thoughtful.
Compliments are still a hard ask.