Category: 2022 Fights Back

  • The Ninth Wave

    The Ninth Wave

    There’s the Advert out of the way, and now there is this almost overriding desire to run away. I knew it was coming, but we’re here now, so no avoiding it. It’s time to lean into the life I spent this long working towards and am now not quite sure is wanted any more, because […]

  • The Universal

    The Universal

    This is not the most important announcement this month. SOON [TM]

  • Not a Job

    Not a Job

    I was shortlisted for a reasonably important Thing. I did not go further. Having now cycled through the Seven Stages of Poetic Grief, I’m fine about it. There is too much else to worry about right now anyway. My life is shortly due to explode in a very specific and wonderful way. That’s absolutely something […]

  • Lost and Found

    Lost and Found

    I will look back on this week, in a year’s time, knowing how important it was for everything I became. A body is moving into shape. The requirement to fuel properly has become massively important. I can’t send things away to people and assume automatic failure any more. Most importantly of all, my voice is […]

  • Turn the Page

    Turn the Page

    Came quite close to passing out at the Gym last night. As of yet, I dunno if this is the indicator of anything more serious, but my blood work two weeks ago was nigh-on perfect, so /shrug. If I’m still here on Monday, I’ll go see someone. 72 hours is the time limit I was […]

  • The Other Side

    The Other Side

    I should have some professional news at the end of September. For now, I am forcing myself to rearrange my lifestyle. This is not without its stresses and strains, and the emergent realization that, at almost 56, remaining happy long term really isn’t sustainable. When I menstruated, the depression was magnitudes worse than it is […]

  • Cafe Del Mar

    Cafe Del Mar

    The last 20 days. Yeah. Two things I can’t talk about. I’ll get there eventually. Sit tight.

  • This is the Sea

    This is the Sea

    Normally, I’d tweet the following. Today, I am going to see who comes, looking. Yesterday, I had my first session with a Mentor. It was, to be fair, exactly as I expected it would be. The pivot I was handed on a piece of work I knew full well wasn’t good enough to succeed has, […]

  • Standing in the Rain

    This time, I’m just going to promise myself, ‘update when you feel up to it’ :D Once upon a time, I wouldn’t have cared about the dangerous precedents being set in the wider world by people whose idea of difference is wearing anything other than M&S underwear. Now, it’s my job to keep the brain […]

  • Enjoy Yourself

    Enjoy Yourself

    Once upon a time, when I wrote blogs, this was all I had. My world was a lot smaller, and considerably less interesting. It was important to make myself feel that The Future would be more and that I was capable of reaching it. Having now got to a space where things are hard to […]