Category: Mental Health

  • Standing in the Rain

    This time, I’m just going to promise myself, ‘update when you feel up to it’ :D Once upon a time, I wouldn’t have cared about the dangerous precedents being set in the wider world by people whose idea of difference is wearing anything other than M&S underwear. Now, it’s my job to keep the brain […]

  • Adventure Time

    Adventure Time

    For the next three days, I am on an adventure. The furthest north I’ve been post Lockdown is Norfolk: this is a lot further afield. Twitter will have pictures, if you are interested in such things. This is not just time off, though: I am going to film, and to write poetry. It will be […]

  • Getting Better

    Getting Better

    It is important to note that I have stopped hoping someone will notice my work. It’s not that I no longer care about critical acclaim or professional progress, rather that I know now, for an absolute certainty, that this shit was never in my hands to begin with. I can put myself out there and […]

  • Endless Art

    Endless Art

    The artwork is doing an important job. It is allowing me to release unexpected mental pressure. That means despite deciding I would stop drawing, tonight it’s continued to leech out of me. Tomorrow I need to tidy and organize to get back to some kind of normality, and to fit that drawing into the process. […]

  • Tears of a Clown

    Tears of a Clown

    It’s never easy to be honest with yourself, it’s why so many people spend their entire lives refusing to do so. You know someone like this. Maybe today is the day when you go and start a conversation with them and maybe help them talk about what’s bothering them. It doesn’t have to be Mental […]

  • Freedom 90

    Freedom 90

    It’s been proper mad since Thursday. I’m running on five hours sleep, with a high stress presentation under my belt, and literally only now sat and realized ‘oh yeah, you haven’t blogged anything for three days…’ except of course I have, but that was work, not personal. Anyway, the project above is why I’m not […]

  • Manic Monday

    Manic Monday

    Day One Proper of my Big Advocacy Gig went off largely without a hitch. I am really having to work rather hard now to concentrate on writing sentences, however, which probably means that a cheeky nap is in my future. The amount of anxiety generated by trying to be someone who looks both focussed and […]

  • Filthy/Gorgeous

    Filthy/Gorgeous

    Not nearly as angry today as I expected to be, but for large portions of the working portion of business it did feel as if I was being followed around by Tim Curry as IT with a rubber hammer, with which he would hit me on the head every ten minutes or so before cackling […]

  • Unfinished Sympathy

    Unfinished Sympathy

    This was written today, because if it were tomorrow, I would have not yet moved on, and that’s what needs to happen. That’s the problem with the World now: all these time zones, so much difference between what’s not for me and then for others. I could have scheduled for Monday but, by then, this […]

  • The Motor

    The Motor

    It’s that moment when you realize that, actually, these people aren’t actually your friends, they are just Mutuals being polite because if they WERE your friends they’d have worked out how fucked you are right now and will have reached out and offered to help. It’s the comprehension that you are running at a different […]