No Ordinary Morning

Politics is done for now. It will be back, after this word from Exercise Central…

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On Monday, I tore up the existing means by which exercise progress is recorded. Instead, on the wall to my right is a space where PostIt notes are stuck every day, noting what has been undertaken. As a default, every day, I’m to have completed the following:

  • 5 Sun Salutes (Yoga)
  • 30 Roll outs (Roll out wheel)
  • 30 Press ups (as close to the ground as I can get)

plus whatever extra exercise happens on top of this. This means that even on rest days (where no serious exertion will take place) something does come to pass. I have to manage twenty one days (theoretically) to make this habit. Let’s see how far we can go.

Yesterday, which should have been rest was 30 minutes on the bike. It’s the equivalent of a brisk walk or a trip to the shops, neither of which I’ve really felt like doing whilst face has been on fire. Yesterday evening, it was what I needed to sleep well, and it worked. There had to be a set of painkillers at 1am when the last of the analgesic the dentists had shoved directly in the empty tooth socket wore off, but there’s no need for any since.

This is the least pain that’s existed for about a fortnight.

Things only change when I want them to.

Let’s go.

Games People Play

The world is changing fast. Some of it is still glacial, but with the amount of melting water around the planet right now we’ll probably need a better metaphor soon… and within it all, so many wish desperately to be right, above all else. There are reasons why laws exist, going back to the days of the bloke with the tablets came down from a  mountain. Human beings are fundamentally flawed. There needs to be a means by which this behaviour can be highlighted.

Law is fundamental to current existence, like it or not.

Without law, #MeToo doesn’t change women’s rights. Serious assaults are ignored, historical abuse condemned to memory. Major companies and organisations, more and more, are finding it impossible to circumnavigate climate change regulations, emissions standards, deforestation… and the list goes on. You can’t say laws matter for one thing but then they’re insignificant somewhere else. Good or bad, this is the Social Contract we all signed up for.

Except more and more, people are doing just that on their own personal platforms.

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Democracy is a hot topic right now, and I’m not going there other than with a couple of tweets and the understanding that there will be people who now believe with 100% certainty that a bunch of posh judges are taking away their democratic right to fuck out of Europe like they voted to. You have fun with that. The reality is so much more nuanced, subtle and complex it’s taken three years for anybody to be in a position to present a reliable version of truth. That’s where we are now.

This is the real future you voted for.

I now have to hope that the people in power who do care about the reality of our future, knee deep in water as it will be, are well aware of what needs to be done. Leave or Remain are irrelevant when you look at the facts. The PM acted illegally in order to ensure he gets a ‘democratic’ vote ratified by any means necessary. I’m sorry, that’s not how this works. That’s never how democracy has worked.

The people in power have shown themselves to be very much left wanting.

Gone

Even with a typo, the latest pamphlet prize work has gone ‘for consideration’. At this point, my reasoning is simple: if it’s good enough, grammar mistakes will not hinder, the credit will be applied regardless. However, after this and a fairly revelatory game-related mind-dump this morning, everything’s a bit dead in the head department. Therefore I will be finishing this, strapping on some trainers and going to beat up a treadmill plus a punchbag, because some days all you want is nothing.

I wonder if that fact registers with some people: it isn’t about keeping constantly active or immersed, stimulating mind and body. The reason why drugs become so attractive to a certain type of person is that there are moments when everything does become too much, and to feel nothing at all is, quite frankly, something you would give anything for. Those days, in the past, were the moments when it became apparent there were mental issues that needed addressing which could not be put down to other things.

That is no longer the case.

Understanding is a long, difficult and very personal journey. It is also impossible to plan for or quantify, it just happens. If you are lucky enough to be able to direct the course, try your utmost not to let other people take your decision making abilities away. It might seem easier and simpler to hand these freedoms over, but it isn’t. Sometimes, there are consequences that even the smartest people don’t see coming.

This is a very exciting time, and the exhaustion will be more than worthwhile long term.